Wicked Sweet

Is it my fault? Why do I feel like everything is my fault? I feel like I’m losing everything & you, the winner takes it all. I’m throwing away everything that I’ve hope for, a better future, a big loving family. I really cannot take this anymore. Just tell me & maybe I’ll be at peace. Maybe I’ll die after you tell me you don’t want me anymore. Everything I did wasn’t enough. When I want to stop because I think I deserve better, you run away. So I don’t deserve any better than what you have given me? This is my worth? :( I’m not good enough, never will be good enough for you. It’s not easy to move on. Trying my hardest to get on normally. How do I be normal when you make my life normal. I want to be yours, I wanna be your wife. I want us to be parents, taking our children to the beach & hanging out in the sun. I don’t mind staying at home, being a mum, taking care of our kids. But then, I ruined everything. I always ruin things that are perfect. I wreck everything, that’s why I don’t deserve you & I’m now just one of your other ex girlfriends. Nothing special anymore

thank u for loving me, the memories we had, will always be kept safe, tucked away quietly. I’ll keep it but i won’t touch it because our memories are just too painful for me to bare, alone, without you. I will always love you, even if you think otherwise. Always; unconditionally & at every point in time. Forever; til ever lasting eternity. I love you, Scott. But I’ll never be ready to say goodbye to you for you are unforgettable. My soul is slowly fading, the pain kills me slowly. No one to dry my tears, overflowing with grief & sadness. Too much for the soul to take.